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Long Distance Love
Well, where do I begin? I am 32 years old. I feel deeply in love at the age of 19. Many people agree that teens do not know what true love is. But here is something that people have to understand. Love comes from inside. Without even knowing it, I believe that we all have that feeling, just waiting, and wanting to escape at the right moment. But some people can't find it early on in life.
It takes a while. But I am here to say that, well, I have found love. I met my husband in California when I was living there. Things were good in the beginning, but yet, we would soon learn that dating in the military is tough. Within two weeks of committed dating, I would go off on a temporary assignment for 1 month, and he was to leave for 2 1/2 months. I was terrified to tell him. For the first time I had found someone who really appreciated me. He cared for me and loved me for who I was. I saw that he cared for me, and I was going to be separated from him. I really, really liked him and I just didn't want to lose him so early on in the game. I wanted to get to know him, I wanted to goof around and just be myself and hang out.
But I wouldn't be able to do that. So let me just tell you that the military made it difficult. It was the longest deployment of my life. We spent countless hours on the phone, just learning about each other. And some part of me thought that it was probably somewhat of a good thing that we could just listen to each other for hours without running out of things to say. When I returned to California and I saw him, I knew we were meant for each other. There was something special there. He told me he loved me a few months into the relationship and so did I. Then afterwards, we then learned that I would be moving to another squadron no soon later.
We have been married now for just about 12 years. Out of those 12 years we have been able to see each other when the military sees fit. Right now out of the last year we have only seen each other for 2 months. The heart does make things seem better, and it does grow fonder if you want it to work.
We have endured so much in our lives that we have been forced to grow up a little faster. We know a lot. We are very mature about a lot of things in life, and this relationship is one of them. God, as I sit here and write this I just miss him more. I just wish sometimes I could just escape for a little while. Just escape all these emotions. I need a break from all of this, but I know if I do that, then who knows how I will end up feeling. All I know is that I love him. I have plans to see him in the fall, but who knows what the military has in store for us yet again.
I have vowed to stay busy while he is away. This way I am not constantly wishing he was home and getting to emotional. I am taking my second year of college classes this year, after the summer. We have love, trust, respect and everything else in this relationship, but it's truly hard. I believe that we are able to do this.
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