The only thing that really kept me going was God, my friends at work, and talking to one of my best friends, Kayleigh, online most evenings where we would cheer ourselves up.
Every now and again during this month, someone called Brian would talk to me, no longer than 15 minutes a time. I was only 19 at the time and he was 30, so I didn't take anything seriously or expect we'd remain in contact. We talked every now and again for about a month I suppose, and then things started happening in my life, like finishing my diploma, so we gradually stopped talking as I guess Brian was pretty busy doing things also.
The next 15 months lots of things changed, I started my degree in Digital Screen Arts, not actually knowing what I wanted to do with my life.
I lived in some kind of fantasy about my future career so I threw myself into this course without knowing what to expect. Uni made me so depressed.
Over the summer in 2005, Uni was sending me letters about my 2nd year, and I sat for days wondering what to do. Someday in September I had to decide if I was going back or not, and I decided not to, and that same day, someone from the past started speaking to me again...
We talked for ages the first night, I think it was a Friday, and by the next day we were talking already on webcam and everything, and for a while I forgot all my problems, I felt nothing could stress me out because I knew when I got home from work I would have someone to talk to, someone I could confide in, someone who lived so many miles away I felt I wouldn't be judged for my decisions.
And so, this continued for a month and we joked about meeting up. I thought 'I can't wait any longer!' and I booked my flight in the middle of October and then the wait began. I found it hard to tell my friends and family how we met because I didn't think they'd really understand.
Months passed, we celebrated each others birthdays apart, Christmas, new years, and eventually on January 12th 2006 I flew over and spent 10 hours on a plane so calm and not even worried what I was doing. This was crazy! Its the type of thing you hear in love stories and in magazines, and you never imagine it happening to you. We had declared our love for each other before we even met, we made each other feel so special and it was like nothing I've ever felt before. I know that God put him in my life for a reason!
I spent forever walking through the airport and I got to arrivals, and he found me straight away! The moment he took my hand everything was amazing, and even our first kiss as we stopped at some traffic lights sealed this. We spent 10 great days together, even a trip to Vegas! (Where we will now be getting married!)
I couldn't stand it anymore being apart from him, and the friction was showing. We were stuck with how things were going to progress; neither of us knew what to do. We spent some days not talking and thinking hard about what we wanted, so I booked another flight out for February so we could be together and talk about what we really wanted.
After an interrogation at the airport, I was back, and stressed out and pretty tired with the long day I had. We got back to Brian's house and I was greeted with rose petals and Brian presenting himself on one knee as he proposed. This was the beginning of everything, and of course I said yes! I couldn't even go 4 weeks without seeing him before I came out again, so how would I cope spending the rest of my life not having him?
Since then Brian has visited me twice, and my friends and family are so accepting of him and adore him. I love him so much that some days I can't believe what is happening to me. I've never been treated with such love, respect and protection, it makes me wonder what I've done to deserve all this. I believe the night we started talking again was all down to fate and karma. Both of us have put so much time and effort into this relationship, wed be crazy to give it all up now.
We're so comfortable with each other now and deciding to move to America has made me grow up, mature, and appreciate my friends and family a lot more than I was doing so. And the distance between us, I wouldn't change it for the world as it makes us appreciate every moment we have together, and visiting each other's countries have shown us different worlds and experiences we wouldn't have had otherwise. Thank you God for uniting us!