There is so much that I want to tell you, and writing you seems to be the only way to say what I feel. In that way maybe this letter is long overdue. So much has happened in these past few years, all the arguments, the fighting, all the harmful words that we say to each other and everything seems as is it's happening because time runs by us and we don't have much time with each other due to work and hectic days. I want you to know that no matter what has happened in the past, I still love you with my entire heart. With all of this, I feel that you seem to think that I don't love you anymore and I know I haven't been showing it to you either. I no longer know how to say it, or show it with feeling. I am worn. I am writing this letter so that maybe you can see that I have a spark left, a small flame that will never go out for as long as I live. I want you to know what you mean to me and how far I am willing to go to be with you.
I want your forgiveness if you are willing or ready to give it. I know that I am not perfect and am not ever going to be, but I do know that I don't want to give you up. I know that we belong together and there were no mistakes in us marring. I love you a lot and hope every day that you know that. I guess I just need to vent and let you know how I feel. Please don't take my venting the wrong way. I love you more then anything in this world. My world revolves around you. I know that is hard to understand or believe. With out you would just make me even more imperfect then I already am.
If every person took a few moments to look back over their life they might come to recall one single moment that changed them completely. One event that shook them to their core and altered the course of their life. One special time when they realized that there was a meaning to life that they had never considered. A moment where everything else paled and faded by comparison. One particular person who opened up the world for them and gave them a sense of their own existence. For me that moment, that someone, was you. You are the person who changed everything. The person who changed me.
I miss the love and passion that we once shared. I don't know when that ended and I don't know how far it is from being gone forever. I hope that you posses that spark to help fix what is broken. You talk about all the bad memorize from when we were first dating. I remember none. I remember how I felt about you, how you made me feel. I miss the romance that we once shared. I miss the love. I miss running home just so that I could call you and talk about nothing, just so I could hear you sweet voice. I was at peace and nothing was going to ever bring me down. I want all of that again. I want the woman that I married.
You say that you want to separate but I feel that we already have. The connection that we used to share is gone. I feel like we are just roommates sharing the same bed. I pray that it can reconnect. I want to know you again. I want the romance back, the way that you made me feel. I want to see you happy again. I miss your smile when you were pleased with me. I miss how every thought that I had was about you and how I could make you happier.
I ask you now if there is a spark in you. Is it truly the end or a new beginning? I pray that I have not already lost you to where I can never get you back. I want to know how you feel about me.
I want to forgive you for everything bad that has happened between us and me as for the same. I want to forget the bad thing and dwell on the good. I have been having a hard time in forgetting not forgiving. There is nothing more that I want but to know that you love me and will never do anything to heart me again. I pray that I can have the strength to do that for you as well. From this day on, I'm going to try harder to become a better person, and not be so adamant about everything, because last night I realized that you are the most important person in my live and that if I continue like this, I may just lose the love we share.